I am

I despair.
I despair looking at your foreign eyes.
I despair fighting a war in your absence.
I am tired.
I hope.
I hope that you’ll return to me one day.
I hope that when that happens our home can be rebuilt.
I am faithful.
I fear.
I fear I’ve failed you even though all I ever did was for you.
I fear that you already know and that I am late.
I am sorry.
I trust.
I trust the fire in my heart and I will not surrender.
I trust in my ability to make things right.
I am brave.
I hate.
I hate standing before you like an enemy.
I hate that you don’t see we’re both lost this way.
I am torn.
I love.
I love a world that we can be together.
I love a future that shines brighter than our past.
I am hopeful.
I am you.