- Vol. 05
- Chapter 10
there is a sucking at the base of the spine when it starts an unfolding a black hole twisted up close to the nape of the neck tugging loosening every segment
there are no physical changes the doctor assured me with plain words a tape played in the office patients serene with certain smiles on the screen standing at the end of it there are no physical changes even when we went through the mental effects streamlined and simple it all makes sense until it starts happening how could a straight line on a graph a jolt and a release feel so uncontrolled they didn’t warn me about this is something w r o n g
please sit still, sir. it feels like that. the procedure is at work.
they’re slipping now falling out of me into space obsolete as soon as they drop out of my mind latex gloves will remove them from wherever they land
drymemories leave blisters is there any residue left behind or is it all sucked clean as one it’s a careful procedure
there is a clatter in a bucket somewhere when they fall out of me even if it’s imagined I am certain of it I know there is a loss in me a loss deep and wide and welcoming I have forgotten but I can’t remember what the relief breaks my face into pieces there is wetness in my eyes a crack in my smile
it is done. you are free to go, sir.
so simple so sweet so grand.