beside him/inside him

the day his heart exploded
it made quite a mess
the red balloon had popped
making splatter art all over his ribcage
he got tired of looking for the girl with
the answers and the smile, who smells like autumn in New York, to show.
She was smoking a cigarette on a street in Paris
reading a book in the New York Public Library
rubbing suntan lotion all over her milky whites arms, shoulders, legs and toes on
Campo beach and laughing at the seagulls who didn't know any better
she was everywhere all the time
except where he needed her so desperately
beside him/inside him.